Limbo Week

 Weight this am - 154.8

Same again.  We are sitting here in that limbo week between Christmas and New Years.   Where everything feels the same and you have no idea what day it is or when you are.    It's feeling like that with the scale.    I really want to see a change.   Two weeks ago it felt like a big shift went on, when I first dipped below 156 on the 13th of December.   Then there was a week of good progress culminating in hitting 154 on the 20th.  

Since then, it's been the limbo dance.    With only a jump up to 156 rather than any new dip down.   I know it's part of the normal pattern.   It's exactly what happens over and over again.    And I'm sure I will eventually be ok with it.   But the 150's are still a sensitive area for me.    These weights are above where I was at 9 months pregnant.   They are a territory that I STILL feel like my body shouldn't occupy.   And right now I'm still sitting above my highest pregnancy weight.    My brain is starting to catch up to the body changes too and I'm starting to be able to really see this weight as 'how far I have to go' rather than 'how far I've come.    Which isn't a bad thing.    Since I really do want to regain my vision of myself as I was and not be stuck in not being able to see myself clearly because of the weight.   

Now I need to figure out if I'm staying on 1.7 or moving up to 2.4   And I need to decide that this week.   Time to see what happens. and prepare for what's to come.